July 5th, 2004

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|| You: ||
Nickname(s): riki, stinky, scurvy, pirate woman, waldo, crigger
Initials : eln
How old do you look? : i look older than i am. most people think im 20 - 23..
How old do you act?: depends. i spend most of my time doing kid shit now, but i really do bounce back and forth between acting like im a little kid and an old man.. sara and i once decided that i am a perfect mix of a senile perverted 80 year old man and a 5 year old girl.
Glasses/Contacts: both
Braces: fuck you man, i like my gap..
Do you have any pets?: yesm.
You get embarrassed: often
What makes you happy?: what makes me happy today might make me cry tomorrow..
What upsets you?: ^ the reverse..

|| Finish the sentence: ||
I Love to... feel free
I Miss... steve even though hes not gone yet..
I Wish... for lots of things.
I Hope...that i am out of new york state within the next couple weeks.
I'm Annoyed by...drama.
I Am... in need of a cig.
I Am Tired of...shit breaking.
I Will Always be...chaotic.

|| Lasts: ||
Last Phone Number You Called: lohr's
Last show you watched on TV: uhm. the kids are watching spongebob

|| Have you ever: ||
Thought you were going to die: quite a few times.
Flunked a grade: no.
Skipped a grade: no, im smart enough, just too lazy. i didnt give a fuck in school.

Using band names, spell out your first name:
Evanescence
Rancid
INDK
Kill Your Idols
Aesop Rock

2) Have you ever had a song written about you?
actually yea. WOO. i feel good now.
3) What song makes you cry?
when steve plays stairway to heaven i always want to cry.
4) What song makes you happy?
sink, florida, sink. dead bodies.
5) What do you like to listen to before bed?
sublime.
6) Name a song by Coal Chamber:
no.
7) Who was/were your idol/s when you were younger?
i had a real big thing for elvis.
8) First album you ever bought?
probably foghat. haha. i dont know really.
9) Name a song that reminds you of someone and why:
stupid fucking drunk cunt.. and it reminds me of me! fuck the rest of ya bastards!




A is for age: 18
B is for boyfriend: who i ran over and buried in my back yard.
C is for career: victim of the chaotic wanderlust
D is for dad's name: keith
E is for essential item to bring to a party: cigs.
F is for favorite song at the moment: i keep randomly singing pool shark.
G is for good movie you recently saw: kill bill, yea, the first one, im behind on the times man.
H is for hometown: honolulu
I is for instruments you play: skinflute ;x
J is for jewel that you like: moonstone.
K is for kids: someday
L is for living arrangements: tara.
M is for mom's name : susan
N is for number of people you've slept with: slept with? ive slept with tons of people.. ive had sex with one if thats what you're asking
O is for overnight hospital stays: uhm..2.. or 5. i dont know anymore. nah, its like 3.
P is for phobia[s]: heights, jumping into deep water, deep water in general, bridges, spiders, the dark, death, just to name a few
Q is for quote you like: "a halo only has to slip a few inches to become a noose"
R is for right, what's on your right: papers
S is for sexual position: i really dont know what its called..
T is for time you wake up: usually around 9.. but when left to my own devices. i sleep at odd times.
U is for unique trait(s): im not unique.
V is for vegetable you love: por tar tars
W is for worst habit: procrastination
X is for x-rays you've had: like 7
Y is for yummy food you make: doombread
Z is for zodiac sign: sag

so.

my life is too chaotic and busy. too big for words.


this is such an emo girl thing.



one of the most spectacular people in my life is moving tonight. i wish him nothing but the best. he deserves it. i'll see him again because, because i just will. i dunno. the kid has literally saved my life and i know im leaving here soon, because there is no point in staying here without him.


god, i am so going to cry sometime in the next few hours. probably when im drunk.




i am so terrified.


i dont know what to say. im so happy and devestated at the same time.


more happy though. definitely happy.
  • Current Music
    me humming..