July 14th, 2004

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What's your drink of choice?: i almost always love a beer here and there (im really into killians irish red right not) but im known for my love of stright shots of damn near anything, especially vodka and rum.
How many does it take before you're drunk?: it really varies from day to day but usually a good 7 or 8 shots gives me a good buzz, but i can drink a lot of liquor. half a bottle will get me trashed but sometimes i just drink the whole bottle..
What are you like when you're drunk?: depends what im drinking. sometimes quiet and serious, i generally wander. usually beer and sweet stuff mixed does that. rum makes me loud, happy, horny, and a bit of a daredevil, vodka gets me the same but not as happy and i usually turn into a giggling dick at some point, whisky gets me all emotional, tequila makes me fucking evil my friend and i were fucking attacking each other and playing with a machete... bad, bad tequila.
Do you like to get drunk at home, or at the bar?: everywhere as long as im not driving. im not really a bar person though. usually.
Alone or at a party?: i drink alone a lot, but i prefer drinking with others
Do you always throw up?: i very rarely throw up from drinking. and if i do its usually because i drank a lot of something sweet or mixed a lot of different types of alcohol.
Do you get rowdy?: sometimes
What's a drink you want to try?: irish carbomb
Have you ever gotten drunk alone?More than once?: haha, yes.
More than five times?: yes.
With your parents? If so, where?: a couple times with my mom. on vacation and at home.
How old were you when you got drunk the first time?: i was 15. pretty old for around here.
What did you get drunk on?: blackberry brandy
How many times in a month do you get drunk?: uhm. probably like around 12 - 15..
Ever had to go to an AA meeting?: nope.

What is your name?: erika leigh
Are you named after anyone?: nope, my mom wanted something that was a little different
What's your screename?: rezerecti0n
Would you name a child of yours after you?: no, but i plan on naming my children after my greatgrandfather or greatgrandmother
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?:my dad wanted me to be a boy, because he wanted to named me keith edward jr.. my mom wanted to named me nigel.. im so happy im a girl.
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: uhm..i guess if i had to, i wouldnt want to though, i like my name, i guess i like tara's middle name anne.
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?: people spell my name erica a lot. that pisses me off. my name is erika, not erica.
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: probably, i dont dig my last name that much.
Your gender:: female.
Straight/Gay/Bi:: straight.
Single?: single. yay.
If not, do you want to be?: im fine with being single. it works for me.
Your age:: 18
Age you act:: i act like any other slightly crazy,hyperactive, choatic, impulzive, teenage girl with a bad temper that parties a lot.
Age you wish you were:: 16.
Your height:: about 5'11" and im one of the shorter people in my family. oh yea.
Eye color:: dark brown
Happy with it?: Yea.
Hair color:: black, brown, some blonde, some bright red.
Happy with it?: *shrug* sure
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: righty with lefty tendencies..
Your living arrangement:: tara's family.
Your family:: my mom. my cousins. my grandma. everyone else maybe blood but they arent really family..
Have any pets?: Yesm.
Whats your job?: right now nothing. i babysit now and then.
Piercings?: 2 in left ear, 1 in right, left side lip. probably going to get my nose redone and my eyebrow done
Tattoos?: a heart and crossbones on the back of my neck and a black nautical star on my left ankle. i want a lot more though. an angel on my left hip and a devil on the right, wings on my shoulder blades, a skull and cross bones below my hip bone, maybe something on my lower back, something else on my neck, to get the one on my neck altered, and maybe some on my arms.. i like tattoos..
Addictions?: yea, nicotine, and i drink and smoke a bit too much
Do you speak another language?: no, not really.
Have a favorite quote?:right now "while everyone around me's busy drowing i float.."
Do you have a webpage?: *shrug*
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?: yes. when i can. the past eats at me sometimes though.
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: not as much as i used to be. but more so than most people.
Do you have any secrets?: too many.
Do you hate yourself?: sometimes.
Do you like your handwriting?: yea, most people cant read it. i like that.
Do you have any bad habits?: yes, smoking, drinking, driving too fast, swearing, not following the rules, lying, messy, sometimes lazy, yelling, mood swings.. blahblah
What is the compliment you get from most people?: that im a good person and that i have a gift.
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: wanderlust
What's your biggest fear?: death
Can you sing?: yea, not the best though.
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: haha i mimic people, or i'll dress all gangsta because its funny.
Are you a loner?: yea, i am sometimes.
What are your #1 priorities in life?: doing something good, being a better person, helping people, learning, having fun, someday starting a solid strong family.
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: probably not, im sorta intense and moody and socially awkward.
Are you a daredevil?: sometimes. i just get in weird moods sometimes..
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?:im too fat, my skin is getting better but still sucks, my hair grows too fast, im socially awkward, im not very true to myself, i can be mean, theres a lot of things. im working on it though.
Are you passive or agressive?: passive/aggressive to the core
Do you have a journal?: Yes.
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: strength is that im a good person, good listener, intuition, insight, wisdom weakness quick temper, oversensitive, i get overattached to people, i take on others shit to the point where it wears me down..and im a lustful sinful bitch
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: i would be good.
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: yes and no. strong enough to still be here. weak enough to still hurt all the time.
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?:so many things.
Do you think life has been good so far?: life is all ive got. even though its been so hard i love that ive had the chance to live
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: keep your heart and your mind open.
What do you like the most about your body?: my eyes, lower legs, hands, lips, collarbones
And least?: everything else
Do you think you are good looking?: no
Are you confident?: occasionally
What is the fictional character you are most like?: no idea.
Are you perceived wrongly?: yes
Do You...
Smoke?: Yes.
Do drugs?: Yes.
Read the newspaper?: sometimes.
Pray?: yes
Go to church?: i go in them sometimes, when their empty.
Talk to strangers who IM you?: not lately
Sleep with stuffed animals?: sometimes.
Take walks in the rain?: yes.
Talk to people even though you hate them?: yea, sometimes.
Drive?: Yes.
Like to drive fast?: Yes.
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?: Yes.
Hurt yourself?: Yes.
Been out of the country?: Yes.
Eaten something that made other people sick?: yes.
Been in love?: no. i wont let myself.
Done drugs?: yea.
Gone skinny dipping?: haha yes! for the first time very recently in fact..
Had a medical emergency?: a few.
Had surgery?: yes.
Ran away from home?: many a time.
Played strip poker?: haha yea. for like 2 minutes. i took my sock off.
Gotten beaten up?: yes.
Beaten someone up?: yes.
Been picked on?: ive gotten my fair share.
Been on stage?: Yes.
Slept outdoors?: Yes.
Thought about suicide?: yes.
Pulled an all nighter?: Yes.
If yes, what is your record?: i think like two weeks.. and months of bouts of insomnia.
Gone one day without food?: yes
Talked on the phone all night?: Yes.
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: all the fucking time man.
Slept all day?: yea.
Killed someone?: No.
Made out with a stranger?: no.
Had sex with a stranger?: No.
Thought you're going crazy?: Yes.
Kissed the same sex?: Yes.
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: Yes.
Been betrayed?: too many times..
Had a dream that came true?: very often.
Met a famous person?: Yes.
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: yes :(
On purpose?: not since i was little. i killed bugs and ants.
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: yea.
Stolen anything?: Yes.
Been on radio/tv?: Yes.
Been in a mosh-pit?: Yes.
Had a nervous breakdown?: Yes.
Bungee jumped?: noooo.
Had a dream that kept coming back?: Yes.
Believe in life on other planets?: Yes.
Miracles?: yes.
Astrology?: somewhat. i dont put a lot of stock in it.
Magic?: yes.
God?: yes.
Satan?: i dont know.
Santa?: hehe.
Ghosts?: Yes.
Luck?: Yes.
Love at first sight?: No.
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: yes, its science. look at nature, everything needs balance.
Witches?: yea.
Easter bunny?: haha.
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: for some.
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: maybe there was, one time. i mean, it could happen.
Do you wish on stars?: yes
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: i dont know for sure. i dont think so.
Do you think God has a gender?: No.
Do you believe in organized religion?: not my thing.
Where do you think we go when we die?: everywhere.
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: Yes.
Who is your best friend?: steve and tara.
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: steve knows a lot but he seems to just overall know me more than most. tara is close though. sometimes.
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: diane when she said to just be myself and stop letting them walk all over me and to listen to the fire,rain,dirt, just. fuck... its a long thing.
Your favourite inside joke?: hey tara!
Thing you're picked on most about?: fat.
Who's your longest known friend?: steve
Newest?: uhm. mike?
Shyest?: me
Funniest?: steve and mike
Sweetest?: little john.
Closest?: steve and tara
Weirdest?: mike
Smartest?: steve.
Ditziest?: me or tara
Friends you miss being close to the most?: i miss joel now.
Last person you talked to online?: charles
Who do you talk to most online?: charles
Who are you on the phone with most?: uhm. my mom
Who do you trust most?: steve
Who listens to your problems?: mike
Who do you fight most with?: mike
Who's the nicest?: beth
Who's on your shit-list?: chris
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: been there, done that.
Who's your second family?: tara's family.
Do you always feel understood?: No.
Who's the loudest friend?: little john
Do you trust others easily?: No.
Who's house were you last at?: tara's
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: tara is one of the few people i can hug.
Do your friends know you?: not always
Friend that lives farthest away: sean or steve..
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?: maybe a necessary one.
What do you find romantic?: im not into that right now.
Turn-on?: fiesty
Turn-off?: wussy
First kiss?: josh. and then i punched him and wouldnt talk to him for four days.
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?: bad, weirded out.
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them: yes
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable for a girl to ask a guy out: yes
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: Yes.
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: some i guess
What is best about the opposite sex?: they're more fun
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: they really dont always get it
What's the last present someone gave you?:steve gave me a guitar
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?: hmmph.
You wanted to kill?: mike
That you laughed at?: diane
That laughed at you?: diane
You went shopping with?: my mom.
That broke your heart?: shush
You saw a movie with?: tara and joel
You talked to on the phone?: my mom
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: charles
You saw?: diane.
You lost?: *sigh*.
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: im about to leave, yes.
What are you wearing right now?: a bright blue hippie skirt and a black tanktop. i was cleaning.
What are you worried about right now?: getting shit done in time.
What book are you reading?: the black monk by anton chekov
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling:: high, nervous, quesy, happy, lonely
Are you bored?: no